I took a short hiatus from writing blog posts, as I was having to empty my storage unit (fun!) and organize, sort, remove, purge…all the exciting things that go along with decluttering and re-energizing.
Additionally, I attended a second virtual meditation retreat that took me much more deeper into myself than the first one I did in May. (More on that later.)
What I’ve found is that even though I thought I stopped a particular behavior, I truly didn’t. And what might that be?
Perfection Paralysis. If I can’t do something perfect, I won’t do it.
Oh, there are times when I embrace vulnerability, but in some instances I do not. You know, fear of being seen, of NOT being seen, of being ridiculed, of being ostracized, of people thinking I don’t know what I’m doing, the possibility of LOSING followers, friends, acquaintances, possible clients (and the list goes on…).
But, NOT being wholly vulnerable and trusting in myself kept me from being my “Holy Sh*t Self!”
So, in the interest of being fully vulnerable and transparent, here is a video of this exact topic.
*Side note: I always said, for decades, I’d rather eat ground up glass than speak publicly. It was beyond fear, it was terror. Here I am being fully vulnerable!
I’ve been doing videos with card readings and general topics; each one gets better. The first ones suck! LOL! However, instead of judging myself, I just keep doing them, keep practicing, and keep getting better. Now, I enjoy doing them! I do know I need practice speaking, to slow down my speech sometimes, and remove those “um’s”!
Sometimes I stutter, or seem to stumble. It’s because: 1. I read faster than I speak, and 2. my mind is much faster than my mouth! And, sometimes so much information wants to come through me that it’s hard to keep up with this wisdom! 🙂
Having said all that, enjoy my vulnerability. I sure do!
Don’t forget, the world needs YOU to be your “Holy Sh*t Self!”